Relationship Relationship Relationship

I do a lot of preaching to the choir. That's because I am the choir, and I need to hear it.

Here's what I find myself dwelling on: Relationships... I truly believe they are the end-all-and-be-all. They are what our GOD is all about. He IS relationship. Everything he does points us back to relationship.

And yet, this seems to be where we are all the most broken. Relationship is what we crave. It's what we need. It's what we search for. It's what we are the most passionate about. When something hurts us, it is because of relationship. When something fills us with joy, it is because of relationship.

I don't know about you, but I'm always trying to "get it right." And I always fall short of my own expectations and desires. The thing I crave seems to be the thing I keep myself from having.

I'm writing this the Monday after Thanksgiving. I spent Thanksgiving with the same two people I always spend it with: My husband and my mother... the people I live with day in and day out. The same three faces that encounter one another in the kitchen, hallway, and adjacent LazyBoys.

... and I find myself longing for a big family to share holidays with. At the same time, I have been unwilling/unmotivated/afraid to open my home and be a host to others who are alone. So... I have no right to feel sad about my situation if I do nothing about it. I'll find all kinds of excuses, believe me. But if I can't be the change I want to see.... I will never experience that which I long for.

Choir dismissed.