Do you ever find yourself in a funk, and you don't know why? It's like a fog that rolls in, and it's hard to find your way out of it.
The last time it happened to me, I was determined to identify where it came from. And sure enough, I traced it back to a small, seemingly inconsequential event: a voice mail message from a friend. The funk trigger was identified.
This was a friend I hadn't heard from in a long time, one that I'd basically given up on after attempts to connect for the past 8 years had been fruitless. I'd been left with a feeling that she didn't value our friendship. So I'd stopped trying. And a bitter root had started to grow.
I mentioned to a mutual friend that it seemed like our friend only contacted me if she wanted something. Immediately I felt guilty for talking about her when I didn't really know her circumstances.
A few days later my cell phone rang, and I saw my long-lost friend's name flashing there. I didn't answer.
What was THAT about? Why didn't I answer? Fear? Resentment? Guilt? WHAT?!
After hearing her sweet voice mail message, I didn't call her back. Instead... the fog started rolling in.
I'd love to be able to report that a funk can go away as soon as you identify the trigger. But just as a phone won't dial itself, relationships won't heal simply by identifying a cause. One step doesn't complete a journey.
I guess this story will be continued... whenever I finally do the right thing.
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